omg. today. day from hell turned into day of learning and growing. i promised myself never to go back into modeling unless i was approached. and i kept that promise. when something small did come my way, i decided, why not, and acted upon it. well, turns out acting upon it only brought about old feelings, feelings of insecurity, never being good enough, and just like the tiniest speck of shit on someones shoe in this city. awful, emotionally draining. but unlike 16 year old me, i went to yoga, debriefed with my mom, and accepted my feelings and knew that they too will pass. that i am bigger than these insignificant experiences, and that they only make me stronger. cliche, but true. calling it a mental health night and going to beddy bye. phew. adios

omg. today. day from hell turned into day of learning and growing.

i promised myself never to go back into modeling unless i was approached. and i kept that promise. when something small did come my way, i decided, why not, and acted upon it. well, turns out acting upon it only brought about old feelings, feelings of insecurity, never being good enough, and just like the tiniest speck of shit on someones shoe in this city. awful, emotionally draining. but unlike 16 year old me, i went to yoga, debriefed with my mom, and accepted my feelings and knew that they too will pass. that i am bigger than these insignificant experiences, and that they only make me stronger. cliche, but true.

calling it a mental health night and going to beddy bye. phew.

adios